Monday, October 15, 2007

i have a good life

So I've been in a large funk lately. Moving down to South Carolina away from my family has been hard. I miss my nephew. I miss my mom. I miss my ducks at the pond from my old apartment as geeky as that sounds. It was so awesome waking up to that every morning.

Besides that I'm still working on getting over a relationship gone bad. I'm trying to understand it all. Love, relationships, where I fit into all of that. Apparently I suck at it. Either that or I'm just meeting all the wrong people. Who knows? Maybe both? Break up songs are helping. :)

Also, I fell at work. Pretty badly. My back looks like a wrung out dishtowel in the x-rays and my doctor is concerned because my chest and my shoulders are hurting. I'm frustrated because I can't work. I'm really not supposed to be doing much of anything but I can't sit here anymore and be stagnant. It's driving me batty.

All that said... I have a good life. I have a great family. I have a best friend who through thick and thin is my sister. We help each other get through this thing called life and it's great to know she's there day or night as I am for her. I have my health... that is to say I'm not dying. In lots of pain, sure. But I'm still alive. I'm pretty. Intelligent. I live on a beautiful island with an abundance of beauitful butterflies and wildlife everywhere. The ocean is 2 minutes away and always welcomes me with open waves. I have a car that doesn't sound like it's about to fall apart. I have something to look forward to. I have faith. I have an amazing dog who is the joy of my day, everyday. I have 2 cats who are a constant source of laughter. I mean seriously I don't know another cat who can meow for 30 seconds straight like mine. It's pretty humorous. So for all the stressy things that are surrounding me at the present moment... I'm just trying to look at the silver lining. Give myself a positive boost for the day. Reminding myself that even though things are pretty out of control at the moment, God is still in control and still throwing out the blessings, I just have to look a little harder to find them.

That's all. Happy day! : )

By the way... KERRY, I am on page 437 of HP7... I will finish it this week and then we can finally talk about it. I'm such a slacker.

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