why do i...
say i love you when i know the answer will always be "alright, talk to you later"..
naively hoping you'll change and want me as much as i have wanted you. hoping for the possibility of a meaningful relationship. to have the closeness with someone like i haven't before. only to be slapped back into the reality that it's never going to happen with you. you'll never be emotional or want what i have to offer. you don't want my sex. you don't want my heart. you want me as your arm candy i guess. but nothing more. even you said that you're unsure of why you want to be with me.
i deserve better.
i want more.
i need to feel loved if i'm going to put my heart on the line again.
but let's face it.
you'll never love me. you barely even like me.